Wish I had 2 levels to drop

My aim this calendar year was to move up 1 level when I returned from holiday end of January. By March I rebuilt my BR successfully and moved up, got off to a great start and then variance hit. I moved back down and this was when I encountered 6000+ hands of garbage. The only draws I hit was in the blinds, TPTK and sets always turned the flush card, I just couldn't win a decent sized pot. To say patterns don't exist is wrong IMO. I even wondered if I could actually play the game. Eventually I got back to winning ways but every attempt to move back up would see my big hands getting busted so I'd move back down again. This still continues, a cycle I just cannot seem to break. Now after a great week I'm getting busted by ATC, sooooo frustrating.
Anyway, apologies for moaning, I just wanted to get a bad night off my chest. I've not played a hand since my last post so now I start afresh
