I think part of my frustration is that I am still having a bad run of cards and am losing. But more than that, it's bothering me that I want to loosen up and play more aggressively with less but I know better. I feel this sick urge to reraise with bottom pair on a scary flop... knowing that I am almost certainly drawing dead if I get called. And to bet the end when it's clear to half the world that I only have top pair and it's no good anymore. I have a twisted desire to 3-bet medium pairs pre-flop when the reraise came from the table rock...
In short... I am fighting a self-destructive urge to drive my bankroll right into the ground. Not that some of these places would always be bad places to make these plays -- especially if I thought the fold equity was right -- but in $10NL you are never getting the right amount of fold equity in these spots so you're going to have to show down the hand.
I am just so tired of flopping a set... betting the pot on the flop, 150% of the pot on the turn, having that 3rd flush card come on the river, and watching the caller make an undersized bet that I know means he hit his flush (but I have to call because it's 5-10% of the size of the pot)... and sure enough, he was drawing all the way with nothing but Q-3 suited. Normally, well even during this run I have been trying, I remind myself that these people are how I make money playing poker... they're paying the wrong price all the way to draw out... and over time, that's where the money comes in... but it's killing my spirit to consistently be on the wrong side of this here.
I know it's not completely my play (although I have made some royally bone-headed calls and plays at times which surely amount to some portion of my losses)... but I am getting frustrated with my play because it's become so tedious... I can only keep playing right... there's nothing else I can do... and wait it out.




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